Miss P. is a client of mine whom I see every Friday when I volunteer at a local clinic which provides a variety of health and social services to those in our community who are most under-served. I prepare for this work by meditating on the prayer in my previous post, and it has been extraordinarily and powerfully impactful in helping me put aside my ego, really be present, and be a clear channel for an intelligent love far greater than my own to direct the synchronicities and events that occur during the sessions.
At this clinic, I share Reiki with any of its clients or staff who wish to experience it, and unless she is physically ill, Miss P. never misses an appointment. As Miss P. experiences physical blindness, she cannot drive, and must make arrangements that take up half her day in order to come for a one hour session. She usually arrives at least half an hour (but, more usually, an hour) early, and must often wait at the clinic long after our session has ended for her ride to retrieve her.
None of these inconveniences deter her from taking the opportunity that the universe has provided to her to do a little self-maintenance. She waits with patience, grace, cheerfulness, and peace. Nor does she come into the session believing that someone else (i.e., the practitioner) holds the magical key to the unlocking of the doorway to her own healing experiences. She listens to her body deeply; she has a profound spiritual life; and, she remains attentive to those areas of her life which negatively affect her health and state of mind. When I was working on her crown chakra the first time we worked together, I repeatedly and distinctly “heard” the words “God bless Jesus”. This was certainly not my own prayer, and so when the session was finished, I asked her if she had a spiritual life. She responded, “Oh, yes, oh yes! Why do you ask?” When I shared with her what came through to me from her crown chakra, she laughed and said, “Oh, child! You got me! Yes, yes, yes! Where would I be without that simple prayer every day!!”
During our session yesterday, I “tuned in” to a deep and old experience of anger that had manifested as an energetic disharmony in her wrist and elbow. I don’t often tell clients what I experience during the session, because I think what they experience is far more important. But, if they ask, I offer, and she asked, so, I told her. She responded by saying, “So that’s what that terrible pain in my elbow all day yesterday and this morning was all about.”
Then she shared with me that she had been asking God to help her identify whom she still needed to forgive. She’d clearly received the answer.
She shared with me her stories of people in her life who had hurt her when she was a child; people in her life who had harmed themselves and, in their self-destructive tendencies, had harmed others whom she loved.
And, then she said something that struck me profoundly. She said, “I thought I had forgiven them. I truly thought I had forgiven them. But, I had not let them go and released them with love into God’s hands.”
My dear Miss P., what a Buddha and Angel you are. Your revelation became my own, too. Your directing your will to have your attention directed by grace to what remains to be done was a messenger to me to clean my own house. And, in my dreams last night, it became clear to me whom I still need to release with love. Your revelation was shared by your own messenger.
Asking and receiving are the same. Forgiving and being forgiven are the same. Loving and being loved are the same. Giving and being gifted are the same.
With all my heart, I thank you, my Buddha-Angel, my Miss P.